more vince fail

more of vincent failing. FAILLLLLLL.

V: i wanted to make a pb n j
V: and i sprained my wrist opening the j jar
V: and on top of that
V: it got old, so i didnt get any j
V: and i had already spread the p
V: b

geez

wow, you want to talk about your shit 4 days before my test? you're a great person. GREAT.

from wikipedia: According to the DSM-IV rationalization occurs "when the individual deals with emotional conflict or internal or external stressors by concealing the true motivations for his or her own thoughts, actions, or feelings through the elaboration of reassuring or self serving but incorrect explanations."

vince fail

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fuck you

despite your best efforts,

i will NOT be a failure because you want me to be.

i will NOT be miserable because you want to ruin my life.

i WILL prevail even though you want me to be defeated.

i WILL succeed even though you want me to fail.

and most of all, i WILL have a happy life, and a whole one at that, even if you're missing from it.

if you think that everybody thinks you're in the wrong, maybe it's because you certainly are.

don't expect me to come crawling back to you because i never will. there's a whole world out there for me, and you're not in it. goodbye.

advice

here's a tip, a really important one, to take into mind.

DON'T GAMBLE. especially if you'd like a family you can keep. it's okay to go to vegas with a bonus or extra cash you have lying around. but if you lose that money, stop playing. STOP. STOPPPPPP.

make sure you don't play any sports book either. Just a stupid decision.

Why do you think casinos don't shut down? it's cause they offer a losing game, actually, many losing games, to customers. for each person who wins 3,000,000 dollars at the slots, do you know how many millions go into the machine? just think carefully.

madagascar escape 2 africa

while watching this movie, i realized the significance of having chris rock voice ALL the zebras. and making all the zebras "the same." it's presenting the stereotype that all black people, or any minority for that matter, are the same. x.x o boy. gj, dreamworks. NOT.

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You chose this road many years ago. We didn't make you do anything.

Festivities!

Began with a Hpnotiq and Diet before dinner.

Pizza.

MY homemade guacamole with chips - so what's a better drink than tequila to pair?

two rounds of Bang! lost - two more shots of tequila

won a round of Catchphrase - no shot.

lost a round of Catchphrase - shot of rum.

pictionary - unfinished

quelf - no one else was drinking, and the buzz was wearing off, so i made my self two huge ass cups of rum and diet with lime - also unfinished

ended the night/morning by taking pictures of passed out people. see me for the evidence. :)

woke up after 6 hours of sleep.

damn, what a great time. i love you guys!

next time we play, instead of space penalties, drink penalties will be enforced. IT WILL BE ONE FUN GAME!

mmm

fare was ok i suppose. wasn't too bad. i think i did well on the first testlet. hard to know.

louie's was a blast.

single hpnotiq
midori sour
double hpnotiq
tequila shot
2 kamikazes
jack and coke

o my!

Oh boy

I just wish we were not the complete opposite of one another. wouldnt it be great? or if you felt what i felt right now? maybe the feeling will subside soon and you will be a part of my life as much as you weren't only a short while ago. i haven't been rubbed the wrong way in such a long time - since the end of sophomore year, i believe. please subside. subside subside subside.

edit: i can't believe you tried to school me in life when you hardly know me. i think what amazes me about you is that you have no thought to speech filtration system. mine is better than brita's, which is a bad thing. i can't think to rub anyone the wrong way with what i say unless i want to hurt their feelings. you, though, say whatever is on your mind, caution be damned. i admire that. for once in my life, i want to say what i think the way i am actually thinking about it. you're making me think twice about my old job offer. :/ i wish i was more like you.
test in t minus 6 days. wowzers.

sorry to cut you off but

I realize, when speaking to superiors that I have a tendency to explain myself more than they expect. Which means I always feel the need to justify my actions or myself. Which means my self esteem is low. Which is a DUH. But subconscious actions are now explained.

:)

all is right with my world again.
i no longer loathe life, me, or others. :D

i was feeling a little too stressed out from everything. things have scaled back down. feeling the appropriate amount of stress again. :D

thanks for letting me bitch.

Strawberry "Shortcut" Cake

For foodgawker.com:
Recipe from:
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/food-network-kitchens/strawberry-shortcut-cake-recipe/index.html
So, I actually had to bake two cakes because they don't rise very well. But hey, it was delicious AND it just looks so pretty!
Thank you, Berkeley Bowl, for the excellent strawberries with which I made this cake for Mothers' Day.
Started on the outside and worked my way inwards.

quarter life crisis?
thinking about a complete lifestyle/personality change right now. hm.

a

you know, you're the only one whom i believe when you tell me that. and for this, i thank you.

on a totally unrelated note, may be disappearing for a Hwile (said stewie style). only leaving the house for my sister's graduation, the gym, and for friday! TGforF. <3 you.

hmmm.

i don't know if i can say that i hope that we'll be okay. let's see what happens. some thinking is in order. i'm hoping i'm just exhausted from trying and need some recuperation.

i want to grab you by your shoulders and shake you whilst screaming. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm about to crack. may already have. oops.

uh oh

:[ uh oh! it's happening again. crappppppp. i haven't felt like this since freshman year of college. NOOOOOO. make it go away.... someone, help! we all know how badly that last one turned out for me. RAWR. :(

scary jobs

i was watching scrubs the other day, and i got to wondering how overwhelming being a doctor or nurse must be. i don't wanna scare anyone heading into it, but for people who want to work in a hospital, caring for long term patients, i find it ______, i dont even know the word for it, that a medical professional can take care of someone until clock out, and then be able to go home and just live their lives. it's completely astonishing to me. you have to depend on someone else to keep the person alive, care for them, know what to do with them. and then, you gotta be able to turn it off at home, not think about work all the time. i mean, with accounting, you stop working, and theres no harm nor foul, but ppl continue to live and breathe! just a scary thought. i'm not saying that doctors and nurses dont work overtime to make sure their patients get the care that's needed, but well, can you really log OT all the time? sigh. i'm just glad that other people can do it, cause i know i dont have the ability to cope. :/

New York City

I want to go to New York sometime soon. Experience the statue of liberty, empire state building, ground zero, etc. Here's a list of eateries that are on my list:
Le Bernadin well, it's eric FRIKKING ripert. he's the best chef in america. i'm sure the meal will be well worth the $105+ price tag. i'm prepared to be immersed in a slow tour of flavors.
i want to go to one of the flay restaurants, but that desire may be appeased by a possible visit to mesa grill in vegas? julia, something to think about...
Gray's Papaya anthony bourdain frequents this place for hot dogs. :)
Katz's Deli featured both in "no reservations" and "man v. food" this, i am hoping will be even better than the brisket sandwich i had in montreal from schwartz's deli (what's deli in french?) holy crap, though, for $14+ a sandwich, this better be worth it. i mean, i know you give a lot of meat, but seriously? crap, just looked at schwartz's prices. $5.50 a sandwich. D: just wiki'd schwartz's. it apparently serves "kosher style" food not "kosher" food, which led me to the definition of kosher. shellfish and the mixing of meat and milk are not kosher, which begs the question, can Jewish people not eat fried chicken if it's marinated in buttermilk?
Russ and Daughters for some smoked salmon and new york bagels.
Sugar Sweet Sunshine cupcakes, julia, cupcakes.
somewhere with authentic new york pizza.
Levain Bakery they're supposed to have the "best cookies ever" but to me, they look a little cakey. i'll be the judge, dammit.
Dessert Truck molten chocolate cake and bread pudding out of a truck, nuff said. will have to twitter them if and when i can go to nyc.
Clinton Street Baking Company they have the best pancakes ever? i've been craving pancakes recently...

Other places i want to go to/foods i want to eat:
Falafel's Drive In falafels, gyros, banana shakes, fries. mmmmmmm. in san jose.
Iguana's Burritozilla home of the 5 pound burritozilla, but that's not what i need, haha.
good bbq ribs from somewhere
carne asada fries OOOHHHH! can be completed when my sister attends UCSD. hooray for education.
Voodoo Doughnuts in Portland. sugar overload. wooooot.
Armandino's Salumi in Seattle. Even though I don't really like mario batali and his parents run this place, but i like italian cured meats. :)
El Bulli in Spain. One day, i will have enough money to fly to spain and come here to eat. but i need to know when that day is one year in advance and have plenty of international minutes or phone cards. they're completely booked for 2009 already and they only look out one year in advance. sigh. one day, ferran adria, i will taste your genius and savor all that you present to me.

I've been craving La Burrita tortilla chips. :P' (That's drool.)

Crap, now i'm hungry. >.<

Monterey Bay

Hi all,
I would like to propose a summer trip to Monterey Bay - Cannery Row and the Aquarium as well. I've never been, and it's only a 2 hour drive. :) Please? I'll email you kids soon. :D They have a Dippin Dots store there! An entire store! there's also black light mini golf. How much fun can we pack into one day? LET'S FIND OUT!!!!

henry's

joie de veev (not vivre) - acai liquer with blueberry and lemon, with a sugar coated rim.
single of hpnotiq on the rocks.
shot of tequila.

OW! (not pain, but like WHOO, you know?)

Daniel Tosh!

So, Daniel Tosh is coming back to San Francisco. Anyone in? (Seriously, now)
http://www.cobbscomedy.com/calendar.html (last one on page as of right now)
2 drink minimum after the ticket price.

Restaurants

I now must come to these places:
http://www.incanto.biz/sample_menu.html (dude, chris cosentino is the head chef here. how bad ass is that?!)
http://www.gialina.com/menu/ (cosentino eats here => must go)
http://www.andalusf.com/menu.html (runner up on sf bay guardian small plates list)
http://www.burgermeistersf.com/pdf/Burgermeister_menu.pdf (but apparently, some locations > others)
http://www.that-takes-the-cake.com/menu.html (OMG OMG OMG CUPCAKES! i need to come on a saturday AND a sunday. different day, different cakes. julia, we are hitting this up!)
http://www.citizencake.com/ccp.html (this has been on my radar for years, but i have never tried it. it's time!) (done and best burger i've had in a while)
http://www.yelp.com/biz/jubili-frozen-yogurt-and-cereal-san-francisco (so apparently, this place > tutti melon, and i LOVE tutti melon)
http://www.yelp.com/biz/foreign-cinema-san-francisco (again, on radar for years)

I'm going to somehow get my hands on the Top 100 List for this year. Will update list at that point.

Emoticons!!!

http://tkhere.blogspot.com/2007/12/brand-new-google-chat-emoticons-no-one.html

http://soneevda.blogspot.com/2008/01/journal-gchat-emoticons.html

3 words: gchat is AWESOME.

Cancelled: Woody Show

Dave the show killer cancelled the Woody Show on Live105 in favor of a syndicated show from LA. Woody Show, I will follow you guys whereever you go!